Time Flies

Time flies when you are having fun and time drags you down when you aren’t. I suddenly realized I haven’t added a blog post since I lost my firstborn cat. And what a year it has been.

In the middle of the COVID pandemic I lost my job. It was for the best and I am quite happy in my new position. The thing is, it has changed. It is so hard to form that feeling of work as family when you only see each other on a screen. Those days are over and my constant work companions are my two dogs. Yes – my family expanded recently and I have a beautiful blonde girl to go with my Seamus.

My Poppy shatters all of the stereotypes about dumb blondes. She is wicked smart and endearably stubborn. She is also bat$hit crazy. All of which adds to my love for this ridiculous princess.

My co-workers entertain me endlessly. I will be an all-hands meeting for our division and I am excited about changes and happy about the numbers and I will look over and they are both snoring.

I will be making a pitch of my most current marketing plan and when I get to the budget, the bunny outside the window moves and my darling watch dogs sound the alarm, barking, howling and jumping over each other as they go from window to window to track the danger.

But the year also had my struggling with anniversaries I would rather ignore. The anniversary of losing my sister to suicide starts the year. And the FaceBook memories that pop up about her life and her loss gut me. My brother, who I lost long before FaceBook came into existence, is a constant sense of loss for me. He has been gone longer than he was alive, but I feel his loss and the loss of potential so profoundly some times that it takes my breath away.

The team that I worked with at my last job has been decimated. I watched my tribe break up as people left an untenable situation and it hurts my heart a little.

And so as I get up to go into the office every morning on the other side of the house, I marvel at my new normal. I willingly stay inside for weeks at a time and look at people through the lens of my computer camera. I look at my calender to see what day of the week it is and count the days until my next journey outside my four walls.